Tuesday, August 4, 2009

My Punishment

Because I did not fulfill my instructions for the first post correctly, I was required to write 100 times "I am a stupid girl will always read instructions carefully. I will be a perfect maid and faithfully serve my Mistress." I wrote it precisely as she typed it and resisted my urge to correct a small grammatical error as it is not my place to change what she has asked me to do. This took quite some time and required 7 pages, front and back. I have photographed some of the pages as well as a close-up of the last few lines. My handwriting has never been very good, but I hope my mistress will forgive me for this personal flaw. In addition to writing lines, I also had to receive 100 spankings for my error. I have faithfully done mistress' bidding and am very sorry for my failure.

Monday, August 3, 2009

Why I Want to Be a Maid

Becoming a woman was never a question for me; I have always known that that is who I am and what I want to be, so the 'sissification' process was never the big, defining feature to me. I am trans, and although it took me several years, I'm no longer ashamed to admit that.

The reason I am attracted to servitude is very simple: I enjoy submitting. I've always been naturally rebellious, and I automatically strike out against authority, but, at heart, what I really want is to be taken control of. I, like anyone in this subculture, am of course attracted to the outfits and the other trappings. I've always enjoyed dressing up whether it be an an elegant ballgown, a sultry schoolgirl outfit, or a weird and wild costume. I feel that we all play roles constantly, and that clothes help us fill those roles...it's not that a girl in a runner's outfit is any different than the same girl in a long silk dress, but she will likely behave differently in those different outfits because the runner's shorts and sports bra make her feel like a runner and the dress makes her feel like a lady. But I digress, the outfits are only the frilly bit, only the cherry on top of the cake. The real part of this, or so I think, is giving your will to someone...letting them decide what you can or cannot say (if you are allowed to speak at all), what is proper for you to do and wear, and even whether or not your hands should be free. There is a comfort and an excitement in knowing that you belong to someone.

In terms of what I have to offer, I'm not entirely sure. All I have to offer is myself, and, therefore, that's all I will offer. I think I will be much more trainable than many sissies who are coming from a masculine persuasion. I am in touch with my femininity; I don't have to be told to wear a bra and panties or how to put together an outfit; I've already gotten long past those simple leaps, and I already live full time as a woman. The initiation process of "girls do X and you do Y, fix it!" is practically extraneous in my case, so we can focus on the core of service and servitude. I know that, once claimed, my purpose is to serve my mistress, whoever she may be, and I take great pleasure in the idea of pleasing my mistress.

My great weakness is twofold. First, I am, as I mentioned, somewhat rebellious, so I will likely test my mistress by subltly ignoring her instructions or 'artistically' going a different direction. I am submissive, but I test authority to make sure that said authority will provide a stern hand. I cannot say what should be done about this, but I will say that it is my nature to touch the burning stove to see if it's hot, so to speak. Also, I have been known to be careless in my following of instructions. I don't always get them done to the letter, and I know this is something which must be corrected.

Hopefully, with a firm hand and good instruction, I will make a good maid for someone.

Amended to adhere to original instructions. Three uniforms I would like to own: